Thursday, October 27, 2011

The Fifth Fat One


People say that before a person dies, his whole life's memory flashes before his eyes. In a split second, he'll be able to see the memories in fast forward motion. He'll see all the good and bad ones. He'll see his regrets. He'll see the laughters shared with his friends. He'll see everything... in a flash.

People overlook the fact that this also happens to the people that person leaves behind. We'll also see all the good and bad ones, but tend to focus on the good ones. We'll also see all the memories and laughters shared. We'll also see everything. The only difference is, with him, he's only gonna see it in a flash... in fast forward motion. But us... we will see it in very slow motion for a relatively longer time. We think of all the jokes shared. All the episodes of Friends watched. The epic ballpen thrown to the Reading teacher. A Walk to Remember by Nicholas Sparks. The seatmate. We will reminisce and reminisce until we can't anymore.

We will look back and try to understand what happened. Try to see if you left any evidence. Try to see what pushed you out of that hotel building.

I'm not gonna pretend that I know you inside and out. But we were really good friends back then. Now, I'm just gonna hang on to the memories of you in that white and blue uniform because those were the good ones.


To be honest, I don't know why you did it. Rest, Marc. Rest in peace.


You will always be the fifth fat one.