PS: When I'm pissed off, just shut up 'cause I'm singing in my head.

When I woke up this morning, I felt the good vibes flowing in me. I slept for 12 hours [after a loooongg day of ushering students from grades 5 and 6 to attend an environmental lecture] and I felt like I was in heaven. I had no morning classes so that was a ginormous plus. I was so ready to have the most perfect day ever. I went to the library to meet up with my thesis partner and distribute tasks. After that, I had the most boring class EVER then I went to our organization's tambayan to meet up with friends and make my perfect day even more perfect.

The minute I opened the tambayan door, I saw an old friend. One scream did not do justice to how excited I was to see her. I hugged her real tight and immediately caught up with what was up with her life. We haven't seen each other for a little less than a year. We talked about law school, guys, gays, love lives, dead ends and grocery stores. Random things could not escape our conversation. It was real nice to see her. It was always a merry-go-round ride everytime I talk to her. It was always smooth and flowy and it feels like it will go on forever.

Eventually, she had to leave so it was just me and my other close friend in the tambayan. We talked about issues of people around us. She talked to me about one of my closest (best) friends in the organization and the shit that that person has been going through lately. I felt like such a bad "best" (the necessity for quotation marks will be explained later) friend because even if I knew all these things about him, I didn't have the push to bring it up whenever that person is around.

I don't know how to ask a person about his/her problems. I always feel awkward because I, myself, don't like being asked about my shit in life so I don't know how to handle these things. I don't like people asking me about my problems because I feel like they're gonna react the wrong way ("awww" or "it's ok") and I'm just gonna feel even shittier. I have massive trust issues so I'm worried that people might give me the wrong advice. I'm used to dealing with my problems on my own because I know who I am and I know how I do things my way. Some may call it "independence", but I call it "pride". My pride has become abnormally big (due to some circumstances) that it is close to impossible to swallow it. Some people may think it's easy to swallow their pride (maybe because they don't have any), but it is an ENORMOUS struggle for me (I think it's a disorder). I was raised to stand on my own two feet without needing any foot but my own, so bare with me.

I looked back and figured out how I dealt with my bestfriends since highschool. I realized that we lasted this long because they were the ones who would just tell me about their problems/worries. I needn't ask them. Starting a conversation with the goal to know what the problem of whoever I'm talking to is such a struggle to me so I feel like I could never be a good bestfriend. (It's not an emo statement. I'm just purely stating what I think.) I don't like meddling with other people's shit because I don't like being meddled with (how many times must I emphasize this in this entry?). When I'm already in the conversation, that's when I can work my magic. I feel like something or someone must set the mood first before I talk to the person about his/her shit. I'm a pretty good listener and I give real good advice (no humility here, I'm really good... you just have to give me time to think). I guess that's what made my bestfriends since highschool stay with me. I can be real funny most of the time, but I can also be intensely emotional. I just feel bad because even if I know that one of my bestfriends is dealing with his shit, I'm just here, helplessly struggling how to approach him, and watching him deal with the shit on his own when I'm willing to clean up all the shit with him.

[There's still one more thing that I realized about myself today, but I think it'd be better to have a separate entry for that. It's quite heavy.]

So the "perfect day" ended with a dinner (plus tea) with my close friends, lots and lots of trivia from a friend who could shorten them once in a while, finally having a one-on-one session with THAT bestfriend, and me abruptly stopping on my way to our boarding house while screaming in my head because of the staring contest I had with a frog who thinks he's boss.

"30 Day" Harry Potter Challenge :')

Day 1: Your fave book. Half-Blood Prince. (order of fave books: 6-7-4-3-1-2-5)

Day 2: Your fave movie. Goblet of Fire

Day 3: Is there any of the films adaptations that have made you angry because they’ve ignored important parts of the book. Chamber of Secrets. It has lots of wrong adaptations from the book like when Snape used the Expelliarmus spell on Lockhart in the Dueling Club scene and Lockhart flew into the air when Expelliarmus is used JUST to disarm. O__O And it wasn't clearly stated why the Tom Riddle memory was able to possess Ginny. They murdered that IMPORTANT part of the book.

Day 4: Least fave female character and why. Lavander Brown. She kissed Ron millions of times. Nuff said. (I'd say Bellatrix Lestrange because she effin' killed Sirius Black, but I feel like she's just a victim of her love to Tom Riddle. O__O)

Day 5: Fave male character and why. Hagrid. In a way, he played the role of Harry's dad. And he's just so FLUFFY! :D

Day 6: What house would you want to be in. Hufflepuff! feeling ko mababago ko ung reputation nila of being sabaw. HAHA!

Day 7: Fave female character and why. Professor McGonagall. While Hagrid played the role of the Harry's dad, McGonagall played Harry's mom. In all the books, she's been consistent in supporting and protecting Harry. :)

Day 8: What do you think would be your fave lessons. Charms and Arithmancy. Charms had me when Hermione muttered, "it's not LevioSAR, it's LeVI-Osa," and Arithmancy..... well, it's Math. HAHA!

Day 9: Least fave male character. Mundungus Fletcher. He's an asshole.

Day 10: Horcruxes or Hallows. Hallows.

Day 11: What character would you say you are most like. Fred or George! :p

Day 12: Fave ship. Ron-Hermione 'til the end!

Day 13: Least fave movie. Chamber of Secrets. But ironically, this is the only movie where I memorize almost all the lines in. I watched this when I was in gradeschool so I must have a fantastic long-term memory. :p

Day 14: Team Voldemort or Team Harry. Team Snape.

Day 15: Who would be your best friends at hogwarts. (three only) Fred, George, and Lee Jordan! :D

Day 16: Fave professor. Professor McGonagall.

Day 17: Are you excited about The Deathly Hallows movie or scared it won’t do the book justice. HAHA! I WAS super excited that I dragged my sister after school and watched it on a Monday

Day 18: Least fave book. Order of the Phoenix.

Day 19: Do you prefer the books or films. It's like asking, "Do you prefer your iPod or your phone?"

Day 20: If you had to meet one member of the cast, who would it be. James and Oliver Phelps! :D And Rupert Grint of course. :p And (promise last na... haha!) Tom Felton. OH YEAH! Emma Watson! :D

Day 21: Out of all the characters that died, if you could bring one back, who would it be.Sirius Black or Dobby. :( I'd say Fred, but I feel like it's interesting to see how George can still be George without his twin. :|

Day 22: Harry Potter or Twilight. This is a stupid question. If you can't figure out why, then..........

Day 23: Any part of the books/movies that makes you cry. Books: When Sirius Black, Dumbledore, and Hedwig died. And when Harry found out that he still has some kind of connection to his parents thru Sirius Black. :') Movies: When Hermione erased the memories of her parents and when Snape died.

Day 24: Any particular scene you wished would have been put in the movie but it wasn’t. St. Mungo's scenes. Peeves and Professor Binns scenes. Hogwarts kitchen scenes! O_O

Day 25: Nineteen years later. Are you happy how it turned out, or do you wish something was different, ie Neville married Luna. What is up with the names of the kids? Nuff said. at saan pinulot ni Rowling si Astoria Greengrass. O_O

Day 26: If you could be able to work one spell without a wand what would it be. Definitely Accio. I feel like we waste half of our lives looking for stuff. May it be our pens, glasses, wallets, or even jobs, long lost friends, and love lives. LOL! emo na pala... HAHA!

Day 27: Would you rather own The Invisibility Cloak, The Resurrection Stone or The Elder Wand. Invisibility Cloak.

Day 28: Do you listen to Wrock, what do you think about it. (http://wizardrock.org/) No. :O

Day 29: Did you enjoy A Very Potter Musical. At first it was super funny, but towards the end, it was a bit draggy.

Day 30: What affect has Harry Potter made on your life and how much does it mean to you? Reading Harry Potter books made me realize that anyone can create different worlds inside their heads. I love how Rowling shared hers and made everyone enter it. (I guess that's what writers are really good at.) Whenever I open a Harry Potter book, my surroundings disappear into a world where it is way cooler to stay at school than home, where the function of rubber duckies are of great importance to some, where a clock that has the faces of your children and husband instead of numbers and hands are more functional, and where a malnutritioned boy who cannot see without his glasses make a good seeker. I'd want my copy of the HP series be passed on to my children and their children and their children and their children and so on to make them see themselves buying their wands, dressrobes, books, quills, inks, and cauldrons in Diagon Alley, being able to find Platform 9 and 3/4, ride the Hogwarts Express, and ride the boats to the greatest adventure they could ever imagine just like I did.